i think it's about time i should explain what really happened this past summer. other than alison and sarah bech, no one knows the whole truth and i want to change that. i knew going into this school year that i was going to be a completely different person whether my friends see it or. the girl i was last year died a slow and painful death.
as some of you know i moved yet again last june and the original plan was to spend july up at my aunt's house in NH so that when we came back in august we would have enough money to actually buy a house this time. well nothing goes according to plan.
for the about the first in july i did stay a week at alison's house as you all have heard but it was her parents suggestion. i didn't ask but i need a place to stay, my little brother was spending the week with my dad(it was my dad's vacation time) and my mom stayed with a friend. once that ended we headed up the NH only to be kicked out by my aunt 3 DAYS later because we won't abandon my dog like she wanted us to do. so that ened with a huge fight between my mom and her sister and my brother and i packing up the car with tears streaming down our faces. the last thing she said to me was "one day you'll understand, katie..." i gave her the coldest look i could manage at that time and i said, "yea, aunt donna, i already do. blood's not that thick after all." it's now december and i still haven't speaken to her even when she commented on my facebook for my birthday. she dead to me just like my dad.
now you may think that's cold of me. well it is but is was colder of her. see when we got back to NJ, we had no place to go. we were techincally homeless. and so begins our hotel-hopping journey, meaning that all summer we were living at one hotel for a few days then moved to the next because we had our dog with us and most of the hotels don't allow pets. but by august we did find one that allow pets but it was around moorsetown/cinnamanson. we stayed here until late october which means i spent my 18th birthday in a cruddy hotel room.
i feel like some of my friends are angery with me because i didn't hang with them last summer. all they knew was that i spent a week at alison's and spent many weekends there. well this is why, why i missed the parties and everything else. going to alison's was my only break from what i suffering. honestly i didn't want to see anyone was else during that because i was too ashamed of where i was living and of my thoughts and feelings. and i'm sorry but this messed me up big time. i learned that when the ice is thin, you actually have less people there for you then you think.

001. Name: Kait
002. Nickname: buffy
003. Married: nope
004. Zodiac sign: libra
005. Male or female: female
006. Elementary: TES
007. Highschool: SHS
008. College: gettin there
010. Hair color: brownish black
011. Long or short: shortish
015. Are you a health freak: nope
016. Height: 5'8"
017. Do you have a crush on someone?: yes but it's complicated
018. Do you like yourself: yep
019. Piercings: three in each ear
021. Righty or lefty: righty baby

FIRSTS:

022. First surgery: right knee
023. First piercing: ears
025. First award: 8th grade (Beverly A. Young Memorial Art Award)
026. First sport you joined: soccer
027. First pet: golden reteriver
028. First vacation: ...idk
029. First concert: none yet but i know who i wanna see... CB or TH!!
030. First crush: long forgotten

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating: nothin
050. Drinking: orange juice
052. I'm about to: work on art homework
053. Listening to: american beauty by cinema bizarre (via youtube)

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids: maybe if i meet the right guy
059. Want to get married: same as above
060. Careers in mind: psychologist and fine artist

WHICH IS BETTER?:

068. Lips or eyes: eyes never lie
069. Hugs or kisses: both
070. Shorter or taller: taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous: both
073. Nice stomach or arms: both
074. Sensitive or loud: sensitive but loud's fun too
075. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
077. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker (hehe that's me)

HAVE YOU EVER:

078. Kissed a stranger?: nope
079. Drank bubbles: no?
080. Lost glasses/contacts: don't have them
081. Ran away from home: no
082. Liked someone younger than you: yea
083. Older: yes
084. Broken someone's heart: yea and it hurt me just the same
085. Been arrested: no
086. Turned someone down: yea
087. Cried when someone died: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself: most of the time
090. Miracles: maybe
091. Love at first sight: lust yes, love needs time to develop
092. Heaven: yea
093. Santa claus: no, gave up on that a long time ago
094. Sex on the first date: no
096. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there someone you want to be with right now?: yes
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?: no
099. Believe in God?: yes
100. Post as 100 Truths: yep

so for those of you who don't know, which is all of you, i've been spending the week with alison. (don't be mad that she didn't tell you guys. she has ADD, remember?)
anyway that's what i'm writing about. i just got back from the doctor's and i had to get some blood drawn, 4 test tubes of it to be exact. keep in mind that these test tubes are the same size as the ones we used in chem!!!! so to give you an idea of what i'm feeling, it's like me on a lot of tic-tacs (ask amanda if you don't know what they are and trust it's not what you think it is) only 10 times worse. ah poor alison. she has to deal with my insanity....hahaha..ha

P.S. SQUIDDY RULES THE WORLD and the caps lock key on alison's keyboard should BURN!!!! good night *face plants into keyboard*hgdfokbldfjbgkdfhsklbghfndlbghsjk

alison:....she's scaring me o.o. but it's rather amusing.....but still, HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Hetalia Check Box Meme

► North Italy (Vargas Feliciano)

[x] You were bullied a lot in your childhood.
[x] You adore pasta, pizza, cheese, and fruit. (all expect pizza)
[] You're very happy-go-lucky.
[] You constantly have a dozy look on your face as if you're always away with the fairies.
[] You have a long curly strand of hair that always tends to stick up.
[x] You're a good artist. (i like to think so)
[x] You can be clumsy at times.
[] You have a friend you always depend upon if you mess up something.
[] If your life was in danger, you would do the typical Italian thing and say: "PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I HAVE RELATIVES IN YOUR COUNTRY!"
[] You would surrender in a war situation. (NEVER!!!)
(4/10)


► Germany (Ludwig)

[] You're very stoic and serious.
[] Sausages are your favorite foods.
[x] You like to walk dogs/your dog.
[x] Your boss/principal/tutor/home-room teacher is a nut-case.
[] You love rules and think they should always be followed to a T.
[] You think the world would be better if everyone played by the rules.
[] You work very hard.
[] Your alone time is your 'happy time'.
[x] You can appear tough but be very considerate towards people.
[x] You've had issues with money once or twice.
(4/10)

► Japan (Kiku Honda)

[x] You're very mature.
[] You think everything over before saying it.
[x] You believe in ghosts but aren't phased by the experience when you see one.
[x] You isolated yourself during childhood.
[] You became very successful in a short amount of time.
[] You are somewhat inexperienced when it comes to the outside world.
[x] You can seem cold/aloof to other people.
[] You're good at practical tasks.
[x] You need time to adjust to new people.
(5/10)

► United States of America (Alfred F. Jones)

[x] You love hamburgers.
[x] You think you're awesome.
[] You love to invent things.
[x] You love going to the cinema/watching films/making films.
[] You can seem to be very brash to other people
[] You have a tendency to stick your nose into other peoples' business.
[] You're terrified of ghosts.
[] You know aliens exist.
[] You tend to wear a bomber jacket all the time.
[] You wear glasses.
(3/10)

► United Kingdom (Arthur Kirkland)

[] You like tea.
[x] You were quite tough and troublesome as a kid.
[x] You're very sarcastic and cynical.
[x] Your cooking is awful.
[x] You love spiritual magical stuff, such as fairies, ghosts...
[] ...But you refuse to believe in aliens.
[] You have tried doing black magic before.
[] You get drunk quite easily.
[] When you are drunk, you tend to be very unhappy.
[x] You're good at embroidery.
(5/10)

► France (Francis Bonnefoy)

[x] You're very affectionate.
[] You think you have a great fashion sense.
[] You like wine.
[] You're the master of whispering romantic things into peoples' ears.
[] You love red roses.
[] When it comes to l'amour, you don't mind men or women.
[x] You're very proud of yourself.
[x] You love culture and the arts.
[] You're very flamboyant.
[] You say you're a gourmet.
(3/10)

► Russia (Ivan Braginski)

[x] You had a very sad childhood.
[x] You're very tall.
[x] You have a tendency to switch between personalities.
[] You wear a scarf all the time.
[] You love sunflowers.
[] You love vodka.
[x] You can seem intimidating to other people.
[x] You're very strong.
[] You have a big nose.
[x] You have a strange laugh that can scare people. (sometimes)
(6/10)

► China (Wong Yao)

[x] You're very mature
[x] You're very superstitious
[] You're very religious
[x] You love pandas
[] You love cooking so much that you nag if food has a certain pattern of tastes
[] You love Hello Kitty (hehe YU PHEONIX DOES!!!)
[] You try to be a role-model for your brothers/sisters/whatever, but are never taken seriously.
[x] You work hard
[x] You're good at drawing
[x] You like sweets
(6/10)

► Austria (Roderich Edelstein)

[x] You are very well-raised.
[x] You're polite.
[] You love classical music.
[x] You like cake.
[] You have a mole on your face.
[x] You dedicate your time to your hobbies rather than what needs to be done right away.
[] You are a virtuoso/play very well on at least one instrument.
[] You've composed music before.
[] You tend to call people 'morons'.
[] You wear glasses.
(4/10)

► Canada (Matthew Williams)

[x] You're often ignored by people.
[] You look younger than you actually are.
[] You love hockey.
[] You love polar bears.
[] You hate fighting.
[] You have one strand of curly hair, like Italy.
[x] You often get mistaken for someone else.
[] You feel under-appreciated.
[] You're bilingual.
[] You always carry a bear with you.
(2/10)

► Cuba

[] You smoke.
[x] You're very physically strong.
[] You've won a lot of fist-fights.
[] In your social circle, there are two brothers - you get along with one, but not with the other.
[x] You have very strong emotions about a variety of topics.
[x] You like hot weather.
[x] You can be very friendly from time to time.
[x] You look very tough on the outside.
[] You make a very nice role-model.
[] You don't let people get a word in edgeways.
(5/10)

► Hungary (Erszebet Hédeváry)

[x] You have a potty-mouth.
[] You like to wear flowers in your hair.
[] You used to be a very tough kid.
[x] You're very reliable.
[x] It's better to have you as a friend rather than an enemy.
[x] You're very faithful.
[x] Your speech and mannerisms can be considered very unladylike.
[x] You and your best friend go together like chalk and cheese.
[x] You are graceful one moment and grinning like a maniac the next.
[] If someone yells that yaoi is going on somewhere, you will drop everything to run off to go and see it.
(8/10)

► Lithuania (Toris Lorinaitis)

[x] You're very loyal.
[x] You feel like your best friend drags you around a lot, but you both have a great time together.
[] You're very serious.
[x] You have a lot of patience.
[x] You think too much about philosophical stuff.
[x] You get depressed when questioning the point of existing/the universe, etc.
[x] You're not very confident.
[x] You were quite rebellious as a child.
[] People tend to walk all over you.
[] You're a born worrier.
(7/10)

► Poland (Feliks Lucasiewocz)

[] You're very flamboyant.
[x] You're quite hyperactive.
[x] You can be quite goofy.
[x] When you're depressed, you tend to rise out of it like a phoenix.
[x] You're very wary of strangers.
[] It takes you ages to come out of your shell.
[x] However, when you're used to someone, you're very chatty.
[] You're very forceful and stand at one end of the argument when it comes to your opinions.
[] You love pansies and corn-poppies.
[x] You get up to lots of crazy antics.
(6/10)

► Prussia (Gilbert Weillschmidt)

[] You're quite mean-spirited.
[] You're a bit of a hooligan.
[x] You're very loyal.
[x] You're very good at tactics.
[] You hate Russia.
[] You love to fight people.
[] You can avoid marriages quite well
[x] You're not always taken seriously.
[] You like drinking.
[] You want to become stronger.
(3/10)

WHOOO! i'm most like Hungary which is close to Romania. ^^ i is happy!!!

[] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend (working on it)
[x] You love music
[x] You have your own room
[x] You own a mobile phone
[x] You have an ipod/mp3 player
[] Your parents are still married
[x] You have more than 1 best friend
[] There is a swimming pool or hot tub or trampoline in your backyard

TOTAL SO FAR: 5

[x] You dress how you want to
[] Sometimes you hang out with friends more than once a week
[] There is a computer/ laptop in your room right now (i wish)
[x] You NEVER cry
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to (haha...if my mom only knew)
[] Your room is big enough for you


TOTAL SO FAR: 8

[] You have over 50 friends on myspace.
[x] You have pictures on myspace.
[] Your parents let you have a myspace.
[] You get allowance
[x] You collect something
[x] You sometimes look forward to going to school/work
[] You don't wish you were someone else
[x] You play sports
[x] You will do something after school/college

TOTAL SO FAR: 13

[] You have a car/truck (not yet)
[] You usually don't argue with your mom/dad
[x] You do not have any failing grades
[x] You have friends

TOTAL SO FAR: 15

[] You know what is going on in the world (no tv or internet)
[x] You care about many people
[x] You know more than one language/​learning a language
[x] You have a screen name
[x] You own a pet
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs
[] You don't have any serious enemies (...)
[x] You are generally a nice person

TOTAL SO FAR: 21

Now count your numbers and multiply by 3

Then title this "my life is __% perfect"